"It's all of it," Neal says quietly. "It's the voices in particular. Hearing things when I was in the Gull, and then again in the library yesterday..."
Yeah, he hasn't mentioned his trip to the library until now to anyone but Malcolm. Even odds as to whether he was hiding it or just trying not to think about it.
He knocks back more of his glass than is probably wise.
"...And it's Rey," he says, feeling strange at the admittance. He never met the woman. Doesn't know anything about her, except that she came from another world, that she was Ellie's friend, and that she's dead. "I've seen bodies before. I've seen people get killed. It's not that it's easy for me, it's not, it's just."
There was a particular kind of horror to finding her body there in the snow. "Her eyes were frozen open. Her fingers... If she'd still been alive, I don't know if they could have been saved. The tissue damage--I'm not a doctor, but. She was frozen. She had frost in her eyes, and I kept waiting for her to blink, but."
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Yeah, he hasn't mentioned his trip to the library until now to anyone but Malcolm. Even odds as to whether he was hiding it or just trying not to think about it.
He knocks back more of his glass than is probably wise.
"...And it's Rey," he says, feeling strange at the admittance. He never met the woman. Doesn't know anything about her, except that she came from another world, that she was Ellie's friend, and that she's dead. "I've seen bodies before. I've seen people get killed. It's not that it's easy for me, it's not, it's just."
There was a particular kind of horror to finding her body there in the snow. "Her eyes were frozen open. Her fingers... If she'd still been alive, I don't know if they could have been saved. The tissue damage--I'm not a doctor, but. She was frozen. She had frost in her eyes, and I kept waiting for her to blink, but."
Neal doesn't know why it bothers him so much.