Raylan's hands settled a little more firmly, fingers clenching into Malcolm's shirt. It was time for another bit of honesty.
"With Doc, I- I did, Malcolm. I didn't want to get into dedicated relationship because it would have meant giving up what I felt was there. Because I wanted to explore it. I didn't plan anything with Tim but.. He is from my world. I-" He couldn't tell him no.
Maybe that made him a weak man, no matter the kicks and blows that he'd taken before all that happened.
"There's not going to be anyone else, Malcolm. I promise. I didn't plan to do any of this. With any of you. Not really." He'd fallen into it along the way with the soft nights and the deep, personal conversation. Malcolm had cracked Raylan like a nut. Doc wasn't even his. Doc was Wyononna's on loan. He belonged to someone else. Someone that was never going to be Raylan's. It was stupid to think otherwise.
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"With Doc, I- I did, Malcolm. I didn't want to get into dedicated relationship because it would have meant giving up what I felt was there. Because I wanted to explore it. I didn't plan anything with Tim but.. He is from my world. I-" He couldn't tell him no.
Maybe that made him a weak man, no matter the kicks and blows that he'd taken before all that happened.
"There's not going to be anyone else, Malcolm. I promise. I didn't plan to do any of this. With any of you. Not really." He'd fallen into it along the way with the soft nights and the deep, personal conversation. Malcolm had cracked Raylan like a nut. Doc wasn't even his. Doc was Wyononna's on loan. He belonged to someone else. Someone that was never going to be Raylan's. It was stupid to think otherwise.