[ He allows the hug, unconsciously leaning into it as if being this close to her will reassure him that she's all right, broken bones aside. He's careful not to hold her too hard because of that, but whether he'll admit it or not, this is something he needs in the aftermath of what she's just told him.
But part of him is telling him he has no right to want this or to receive it. ]
But if I can't keep track of where everyone is and what they're doing, if they need backup, I'm not doing my job very well at all.
[ He knows he's missing some pieces of the puzzle, that he doesn't know everything about what's coming for him in the future, but if he's still in any sort of leadership position then, he's clearly failed at his job.
The last thing he intends to do is wallow in guilt, because that's such a waste of time, but if he understands anything, it's that she was put in harm's way and that he failed to prevent it.
But there again, his regrets or whatever they are pale in comparison to something else: her well-being. ]
By rights, you shouldn't even be here. [ It's tricky, because he knows how stubborn she can be, and how self-sufficient she is, but if he has anything to say about it, he'll do anything he can to keep her safe, whatever it takes. ]
You didn't even get to recover properly before being swept off. [ Things were already complicated, but before, he'd been happy to see her. Now he just wants to find a way to get her back home. ]
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But part of him is telling him he has no right to want this or to receive it. ]
But if I can't keep track of where everyone is and what they're doing, if they need backup, I'm not doing my job very well at all.
[ He knows he's missing some pieces of the puzzle, that he doesn't know everything about what's coming for him in the future, but if he's still in any sort of leadership position then, he's clearly failed at his job.
The last thing he intends to do is wallow in guilt, because that's such a waste of time, but if he understands anything, it's that she was put in harm's way and that he failed to prevent it.
But there again, his regrets or whatever they are pale in comparison to something else: her well-being. ]
By rights, you shouldn't even be here. [ It's tricky, because he knows how stubborn she can be, and how self-sufficient she is, but if he has anything to say about it, he'll do anything he can to keep her safe, whatever it takes. ]
You didn't even get to recover properly before being swept off. [ Things were already complicated, but before, he'd been happy to see her. Now he just wants to find a way to get her back home. ]