"With my dad. I'd take my class work with me and visit him in prison and we'd talk about it. ...Part of me... wants some kind of relationship with him. And the rest of me hates that part of me for it." He looks at Negan. "Wanting to go crazy after doing the things you had to do... that's normal. Wanting to be rid of the feeling of responsibility for it. Wanting to not have to do it anymore. It's a wish for dissociation. It's normal, after what you went through."