That's what he'd tried to do last time. Look where it had gotten him.
"Neal-," he started at the next break of the smaller man's voice against his shoulder but it was swept under and silenced by Neal's continuation. Doc and Malcolm might need him, sure, but they could survive without him if they had to. He wasn't necessary for that to continue and at home - the baby was barely a bean and Winona.. He wanted to be there for them, no matter what he had to suffer for it, but waiting...
Winona had proven again she didn't want him. And if asked, he'd go running back like a kicked dog, hat in hand.
He couldn't say any of that and he didn't stop Neal from pulling away. He didn't follow. Whatever Neal needed, it wasn't against his chest.
"It won't help. It still got me. We're still damned," he replied quietly, with a soft note of defeat before he started stepping forwards. "I ain't leavin' you to it again, Neal. I'm not. You and Doc and Malcolm give more of a shit about me than anyone else back home. I'm not leavin' you to it."
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"Neal-," he started at the next break of the smaller man's voice against his shoulder but it was swept under and silenced by Neal's continuation. Doc and Malcolm might need him, sure, but they could survive without him if they had to. He wasn't necessary for that to continue and at home - the baby was barely a bean and Winona.. He wanted to be there for them, no matter what he had to suffer for it, but waiting...
Winona had proven again she didn't want him. And if asked, he'd go running back like a kicked dog, hat in hand.
He couldn't say any of that and he didn't stop Neal from pulling away. He didn't follow. Whatever Neal needed, it wasn't against his chest.
"It won't help. It still got me. We're still damned," he replied quietly, with a soft note of defeat before he started stepping forwards. "I ain't leavin' you to it again, Neal. I'm not. You and Doc and Malcolm give more of a shit about me than anyone else back home. I'm not leavin' you to it."