He spreads his hands in a wide shrug, “I’ve only really stopped the once. I mean- I’ve done plenty of thirty-sixty-ninety day stints or whatever through the years, court mandated stuff, but...it’s harder to stay away than it is to just dive back into it all, you know?”

He tips his head back and chuckles softly, a hollow sound in the back of his throat. “Plus, sometimes I think it’s the only thing keeping me together in this place.” A smirk curls across his lips. “But I know that’s just the addict in me.”