He wasn't going to start with 'Doc said'. What Doc said was between him and Doc.
Raylan looked down as Malcolm spoke, thumb brushing back and forth some more, for both their sakes. He knew that, with exception to him being an asshole, Malcolm was right about all these things, and it still didn't make it easier for Raylan himself. He looked up at the mention of Neal kissing Malcolm, maybe a little more interested or concerned, he couldn't tell which, in it having happened at all.
He swallowed thickly. "Malcolm, before this place, I've had exactly three romantic thoughts about another man. I am not...." He'd already talked about this with Doc, in the garage, days before, but it felt significantly harder, doing it in this order. He took a deep breath through his nose and tried again. Everything sounded terrible in his head, something too easily twisted and taken the wrong way.
"Bein' in bed with you.. And Henry-" He was a part of this, regardless of what was easiest in this already not easy at all thing. "-these aren't careless choices. I would not be here if I was not interested." He looked back up at Malcolm to put a point on those words. "I wouldn't have kissed you at the clothing shop if I didn't already know that you liked me... I don't know if that's enough to make you reconsider the ruling on my level of asshole."
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Raylan looked down as Malcolm spoke, thumb brushing back and forth some more, for both their sakes. He knew that, with exception to him being an asshole, Malcolm was right about all these things, and it still didn't make it easier for Raylan himself. He looked up at the mention of Neal kissing Malcolm, maybe a little more interested or concerned, he couldn't tell which, in it having happened at all.
He swallowed thickly. "Malcolm, before this place, I've had exactly three romantic thoughts about another man. I am not...." He'd already talked about this with Doc, in the garage, days before, but it felt significantly harder, doing it in this order. He took a deep breath through his nose and tried again. Everything sounded terrible in his head, something too easily twisted and taken the wrong way.
"Bein' in bed with you.. And Henry-" He was a part of this, regardless of what was easiest in this already not easy at all thing. "-these aren't careless choices. I would not be here if I was not interested." He looked back up at Malcolm to put a point on those words. "I wouldn't have kissed you at the clothing shop if I didn't already know that you liked me... I don't know if that's enough to make you reconsider the ruling on my level of asshole."