"It feels selfish," he says quietly. It would be a waste to have everyone deprive themselves of sleep on account of some false sense of solidarity but Malcolm brings the privilege of it to light and makes him aware of one of many things he takes for granted.

"I have been called selfish many times. Usually in the heat of the moment, but that makes it no less true." Perhaps unsurprisingly, Doc 'well frankly I don't give a shit' Holliday takes these things to heart even if he tries to make it look like he's invulnerable to every cutting remark cast his way.

"Before my time is through I... should like to be a better man." He doesn't need the validation - he would just... know. And he knows he's not there yet.