[ elena shakes her head. it's the same conversation she'd had with stefan, a thought she's had a thousand times over. elena gilbert does not want to live her life as a vampire.
the human life and experience is one that she prefers and enjoys, and even though being like elijah is scary and unknown to her, she doesn't want to risk losing herself. she doesn't think it's fair she lives when everyone around her has died and died and died. ]
I never wanted to be one.
[ not even in the face of possibly being able to see jeremy and stefan and bonnie and caroline again. it's not worth it if she's not whole. ]
Does that bother you? [ her voice comes out small and she hates it. ] It bothered Damon.
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the human life and experience is one that she prefers and enjoys, and even though being like elijah is scary and unknown to her, she doesn't want to risk losing herself. she doesn't think it's fair she lives when everyone around her has died and died and died. ]
I never wanted to be one.
[ not even in the face of possibly being able to see jeremy and stefan and bonnie and caroline again. it's not worth it if she's not whole. ]
Does that bother you? [ her voice comes out small and she hates it. ] It bothered Damon.