( He doesn't have the answer. He's never thought hard enough about it to give it a name, or to decide if Cas was wrong, if Cas could have Dean like he wanted. He knows he broke down after. He knows how he's been around other guys. Not all guys, and never anything he could put a name to. And nothing he wants to think about right now.
no subject
He grips the chair in front of him. )
You lose someone before?